Absolutely one of the greatest albums that year (1980), the riffs and solos of Ozzy Osbournes dear beloved friend Randy Rhoads that he was contributed many songs with, was never before seen on the musical seen. One particular song in the "blizzard of ozz" album is Crazy Train, which is really a masterpiece not just from a guitaristic perspective but, but Ozzy's voice range does clearly fulfill this great song.
From my my perspective, Crazy Train have helped me so many times, from quit addiciting, i almost feel like i'm Ozzy when i hear this song and it means so much more to me than a song, it have saved my life a few times. The metaphore "I'm going off the rails on a crazy train" in the song lyric describes really how bad Ozzy felt with his on going addicition and was "going of the CRAZY TRAIN". That lyric have literally pushed me off the crazy train or else i would have been on a bad side. I listen to this song in every daily thing i do, raise up in bed, train, calm down, when i have anxiety attacks, so about 20 times a day and i never get tired becaused as i said, when i'm in the "dark" this help me get out of it.
For the background i suffer from severe depression and panic attacks, which my quick solution was to eat sleeping pills, anxiety pills because i was bullied as a child, feeling unsecurited and has social phobia. This led me to overdose several times where i should have died. OF course i hated been called shy becaused i didn't talk so much and so on in my younger age, SO what i did was to drink alcohol, which turned out to that i could drink enourmos amounts of liquor without puking or anything, i did always felt the need for more alcohol. Eventually i wanted to become a "rockstar", cause i didn't want people to look at the me and se me as a shy boy, so i became i clown/crazy guy. Of course when the rockstar came into my world, cocaine, speed, sleeping pills, alcohol etc. i realized im gonna die if i keep doing it: You might think when i did listening to Ozzy's "Crazy train" and "suicide solution", i wanted to get **bleep**ed up, but it somehow reminds me of that little shy Ozzy as a boy which also was bullied in school. It reminds me that i and Ozzy has a lot i common besides he is actually a rockstar, but the same personalities. It feels like he singing to my inner soul or something. Music can really be something else than just "music". I want to thank Ozzy for the amazing stories and songs he gave me.
IS there anyone else that feels like me when listening to particullary "Crazy Train"s lyrics, or am i the only one who doesn't thinks he is "mental crazy".
In other words has someone other: get's the metaphor behind the lyrics of the song (struggle with the depression/feeling like going crazy)? And being helped in i a way like myself by listenting to the song or something similarity?
Friendly whishes, Daniel.